Concert Program

Just Me

December 1, 2023 7:00 PM

A Note from the Artistic Director

Dear esteemed guests,

Thank you for joining us at our "Just Me" concert, an event dedicated to fostering a deeper understanding of the experiences of our community members who identify as transgender and non-binary. In the face of prevailing examples of ignorance and discrimination reflected in restrictive laws, our concert serves as a platform to encourage active listening and support.

Tonight's discussion aims to underscore the ongoing struggle for equality, emphasizing that this fight is, at its core, a pursuit of humanity and justice. It is crucial to recognize that the journey toward justice for the LGBTQ community extends beyond the realm of politics. As we delve into the complexities of various social issues, our objective is to explore profound and personal layers, fostering greater understanding and empathy.

The narratives and musical performances featured this evening showcase the diverse spectrum of the human experience—spanning from stories of trauma and pain to those of acceptance and joy. Through this event, we aspire to broaden your awareness and fortify your commitment to the allyship required to safeguard the most vulnerable members of our society.

Once again, we appreciate your presence and participation in this meaningful exploration of compassion and solidarity.

Sincerely,

Alexander Lloyd Blake
Executive/ Founding Artistic Director

Concert Program

We Hold Your Names Sacred

Music by:
Mari Esabel Valverde
Text by:
Dane Figueroa Edidi

Sisters whose lives were taken

Memories of you

we sing

Note, chord, melody, harmony,

psalm

Prayers

we offer with tears

Love

with words we give

High

we lift your spirit up

So you may know forever joy

Jaquarrius Holland

Chyna Gibson

Ty Underwood

Penny Proud

Crystal Edmonds

Islan Nettles

Angel Rose

Lexi

Layla Peláez Sánchez

Muhlaysia Booker

Brianna “BB” Hill

Layleen Polanco

May your smile be made eternal

May justice be brought

with this refrain

Sisters we hold sacred your names.

Walls

Music by:
Walter Afanaseiff, arranged by Nathan Heldman
Text by:
Alan and Marilyn Bergman

Walls high and low,

thick and thin,

They keep you out,

they keep you in.

Walls narrow and wide,

round or square,

With warning signs,

“Watch out”, “Beware”.

Brick by brick they build them

but it seems to be,

Brick by brick they build them

where they shouldn’t be.

We should be building bridges

to a better day,

Where no walls 

would stand in the way.

Walls here and there, everywhere,

in every city, every town.

We would have that better day,

if all the walls came tumbling down.

Brick by brick, 

at times they’re of a different kind.

Brick by brick,

They’re built around the heart and mind.

Sometimes lasting longer 

than the ones that are made of stone,

Keeping us apart and alone.

These are walls that we don’t see,

that we build between the you and me.

Made of broken dreams,

and wounded feelings that go on.

Like walls we wish to go away,

could we have ourselves that better day?

If we took the chance to simply say,

that we forgive.

And then we’d forget,

they’d be gone.

Of walls here and there, ev’rywhere,

in ev’ry city ev’ry town,

We would have that better day,

if all the wells came tumbling down.

What Do You Think I Fought For at Omaha Beach?

Music by:
Melissa Dunphy
Text by:
Philip Spooner

Good morning, committee. My name is Phillip Spooner and I live at 5 Graham Street in Biddeford. I am 86 years old and a lifetime Republican and an active VFW chaplain … I was born on a potato farm north of Caribou and Perham, where I was raised to believe that all men are created equal and I've never forgotten that.

I served in the U.S. Army, 1942-1945 … I worked with every outfit over there, including Patton's Third Army. I saw action in all five major battles in Europe … I was in the liberation of Paris.

(I have seen much, so much blood and guts, so much suffering, much sadness, much sacrifice.)

I am here today because of a conversation I had last June when I was voting. A woman … asked me, "Do you believe in equality for gay and lesbian people?" I was pretty surprised to be asked a question like that. It made no sense to me. Finally I asked her, "What do you think I fought for at Omaha Beach?"

For freedom and equality. These are the values that make America a great nation, one worth dying for.

My wife and I did not raise four sons with the idea that our gay son would be left out. We raised them all to be hard-working, proud, and loyal Americans and they all did good.

Take What You Need

Music by:
Reena Esmail
Text by:
Reena Esmail

Take a moment

Take a breath

Take time

Take care

Take heart

Take hope

Take a step

Take a chance

Take courage

Take charge

Take a stand

Take pride

Take joy

Take pause

Take a moment

Take a breath

Take what you need

Take a moment

Take a breath

Take time

Take care

Take heart

Take hope

Take a step

Take a chance

Take courage

Take charge

Take a stand

Take pride

Take joy

Take pause

Take a moment

Take a breath

Take what you need

Take what you need

Take what you need

Take a moment

Take a breath

Take time

Take care

Take heart

Take hope

Take a step

Take a chance

Take courage

Take charge

Take a stand

Take a pride

Take joy

Take pause


Take a moment

Take a breath

Take what you need…

Cara Zydor Fesjian, soloist

The Circle - conducted by Kristen Simpson

Music by:
Allan Robert Petker
Text by:
Edwin Markham

He drew a circle that shut me out:
He drew a circle that shut me out:
He drew a circle that shut me out:
He drew a circle that shut me out:
He drew a circle that completely shut me out:

shut me out.

Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.

But Love and I had the wit to win:

But Love and I had the wit to win:

But Love and I,

But Love and I had the wit,

The wit to win:

We drew a circle,

We drew a circle,

 We drew a circle that took him in,

That took him in,

That took him in.

Abide With Me

Music by:
William H. Monk, arranged by Moses Hogan
Text by:
Henry F. Lyte

Abide with me,

Fast falls the eventide;

The darkness deepens,

Lord, with me abide.

When other helpers fail

and comforts flee,

Help of the helpless,

O abide with me.

I need Thy presence 

ev’ry passing hour.

What but Thy grace 

can foil the tempter’s pow’r? 

Who, like Thyself, 

my guide and stay can be?

Through cloud and sunshine, 

O abide with me.

O Thou who changest not, 

abide with me.

In Life, in death,

O Lord, abide with me.

Amen, Amen, 

Amen.

True Colors

Music by:
Billy Steinberg and Tom Kelly, arranged by Saunder Choi
Text by:
Billy Steinberg and Tom Kelly

Look at all the colors.

Aren’t they beautiful?

So many shades and hues,

So many points of view,

like a rainbow.

Blue, purple, green, red,

tinges of yellow, black.

You with the sad eyes, 

Don’t be discouraged,

Oh I realize, 

it's hard to take courage.

In a world full of people, 

you can lose sight of it all,

and the darkness inside you can make you feel so small.

Show me a smile then,

don’t be unhappy,

can’t remember when I last saw you laughin’.

If this world makes you crazy and you’ve taken all you can bear,

Just call me up because you know I’ll be there.

And I’ll see your true colors shining through.

I see your true colors, 

that’s why I love you,

so don’t be afraid to let them show.

Your true colors are shining

Like a rainbow

Let go of the pain,

and fight through the struggle.

Come out of the dark and show the world who you are.

We’ll see our lives in living technicolor,

when all of humanity become one.

I see your true colors shining through.

I see your true colors, 

that's why I love you,

so don’t be afraid to let them show,

Your true colors are shining,

I see your true colors shining through, 

like a rainbow

Look at all the colors.

Let Your True Self Sing

Music by:
Carlos Cordero
Text by:
Ryan Heller

Cold winds blow over my barren soul,

Scattered pieces of my life across broken time,

I am alone.

Surrounded by eternity

I hear a voice

Calling me:

Come back…

I am broken, yet whole.

Listen deeply,

Your true self sings

Throw open the door,

Come back to that voice,

Share that voice,

Your voice…

Reflection

Music by:
Matthew Wilder, arranged by Nathan Heldman
Text by:
David Zipple

Look at me, 

You may think you see who I really am,

But you’ll never know me.

Every day,

It’s as if I play a part.

Now I see,

If I wear a mask I can fool the world,

But I cannot fool my heart.

Who is that girl I see,

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show who I am inside?

I am now

In a world where I have to hide my heart,

And what I believe in.

But somehow,

I will show the world what’s inside my heart,

And be loved for who I am.

Who is that girl I see,

Staring straight back at me?

Why is my reflection someone I don’t know?

I won’t pretend that I’m 

Someone else for all time.

When will my reflection show who I am inside?

There’s a heart that must be free to fly,

That burns with a need 

To know the reason why.

Why must we all conceal

What we think, how we feel?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

Performers

Soprano

  • Hannah Abrahim
  • Cassandra Duschane
  • Gracie Laboy
  • Mariah Rae
  • Becca Tomasko
  • Socks Whitmore

Alto

  • Abigail Berry
  • Kim Dawson
  • Natalie Gonzalez
  • Hannah Lewis
  • Anna Marie Meyer
  • Mayuri Vasan

Tenor

  • Samuel Avila
  • Jonathan Byram
  • Isaiah Chacon
  • Josh Gronlund
  • Nathan Heldman
  • Zachary Zaret

Bass

  • Sam Garcia
  • Aaron Jung
  • Zev Marx-Kahn
  • Joe Santoni
  • Max Smith
  • Theo Trevisan

Soloists

  • Hannah Abrahim (True Colors - Dec. 3)
  • Samuel Avila (True Colors)
  • Abigail Berry (Reflection - Dec. 1)
  • Kim Dawson (Rise Up)
  • Cassandra Duschane (True Colors - Dec. 1)
  • Natalie Gonzalez (Reflection - Dec. 3)
  • Socks Whitmore (they/them) (Take What You Need)

Guest Vocalists, from 8TPS (Take What You Need)

  • Nick Webster (he/they), soprano
  • Even Johnson (they/them), alto
  • Crystal Stull (she/her), tenor
  • Tanner Pfeiffer, bass

Instrumentalists

  • Kristen Simpson, piano
  • Tim Reynolds, violin

Deaf Performers

  • Mikey Agyin
  • La’Rina Carolina

Hearing Interpreters

  • Gregorio Nieto
  • David Banda
  • Victoria Elliott

Special Thanks

Tonality Board of Directors

  • Dr. Alexander Lloyd Blake, Executive/Founding Director
  • Dr. David Connors, Chairperson
  • Caroline McKenzie, Vice-Chairperson
  • Joe Trapanese, Secretary
  • Dr. Kimberly Bradshaw, Treasurer
  • Jacob Broussard
  • Roman GianArthur
  • Shawn Kirchner
  • Jordan Reddout
  • Julie Smith

Honorary Board Members

  • Michael Abels
  • Kris Bowers
  • Lara Downes
  • Dr. Melissa Dunphy
  • Brian Lauritzen
  • Nikky Finney
  • Kevin “K.O.” Olusola
  • Joel Thompson

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  • Dr. Derrell Acon
  • Stacy Brightman
  • Melissa Denton
  • Kristy Edmunds
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  • Luke McEndarfer
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